LAS LECCIONES

Learning to Trust Myself Again

“Leave before the devil arrives.” — Denzel Washington

I’m learning to do things in the moment — to follow my first mind and trust my intuition from the start. So many of the unnecessary lessons I’ve had to walk through came from ignoring that quiet voice within.

I’m also learning not to punish myself for the times I didn’t listen, because I’m human — and being human means I’m allowed to make mistakes, learn, and grow.

The Waves of Healing

Healing, I’ve come to realize, is a rollercoaster. It comes in waves — sometimes soft and soothing, sometimes crashing hard. Much of my healing has been about acknowledging the moments when I didn’t follow my intuition, when I stayed too long, gave too much, or ignored what I knew deep down to be true.

I used to linger in situations that I should’ve left. I would sit with the devil, talk to him, try to understand and even love him — believing that compassion could transform darkness into light. But the truth is, the devil will always operate as the devil. No amount of love, affirmation, or understanding can change someone who’s committed to misunderstanding you.

Following the Nudge

Recently, I had a moment that reminded me of what happens when I do follow my intuition.

I felt a nudge to introduce myself to a group of people — but I hesitated, circling back three or four times before finally doing it.

When I did, the conversation was amazing — full of insight and connection.

While talking, I noticed something about myself: I tend to dominate in the beginning. I lead strongly because I want people to know who I am upfront. I never hold back, because I know I can always replenish what I give.

But just because I can replenish doesn’t mean I should give so freely. Sometimes, it’s not generosity — it’s overextension.

Taking Up and Sharing Space

I realized that, in my effort to be fully seen and understood, I sometimes take up more space than I intend to — leaving less room for others to express themselves.

Taking up space is powerful. But sharing space is sacred, too.

Part of my tendency to overgive or overinvest comes from wanting to avoid confusion. I invest deeply and quickly because I don’t want to waste time. I’ve been so focused on building my business and purpose that I treat relationships with the same intensity.

But how can genuine partnership grow if I’m rushing the process?
Am I giving both of us the space to learn and evolve — or am I pouring so much that I lose sight of my own humanity in the process?

Many Truths Can Coexist

This is the beauty of yoga: the reminder that many truths can exist at once.

My former manager once told me:

“You can never say the wrong thing to the right person.”

That quote has always stayed with me. The people meant to hear you will — even if they don’t fully understand, they’ll still walk beside you.

We’re not meant to be equal in everything. Our strengths and weaknesses are part of what make relationships balanced and beautiful. What feels natural for me may not for someone else — and that’s okay. True love honors difference.

Grace in Growth

Lately, I’ve been reflecting on the balance between independence and support. I often feel weak for needing more help than I want to admit.

Even in yoga, I’ve called myself a failure for not holding certain poses long enough — pushing past my limits just to prove that I can, forgetting that the purpose of the practice is to feel, not to force.

What I find ironic is that I genuinely love using accessories in my practice because they enhance it so much. I have physical limitations that can be extremely uncomfortable, and incorporating those accessories makes each pose more accessible and supportive for my body.

Earlier today, I pulled the Five of Wands, a reminder that obstacles and conflict are part of growth.

I knew challenges would come, and as usual, I started being overly critical of how I might handle them. But I’m realizing that I’m doing my human best.

Maybe I could’ve done things differently. Maybe not. But spending energy wishing I could go back doesn’t serve me.

The real power lies in taking what I’ve learned and moving forward — with more grace, awareness, and compassion — for myself, first and foremost.